It started badly, but today turned out to be the first happy day I've had in a while. I had sort of forgotten what that was like. Turns out, it's really the little things that make the difference. Nothing very remarkable happened today, just a string of little things that made me think yes, ok, I can do this. There is a shiny happy place at the other end of this road and I can make it there. I still have a long way to go, and I'm sure there will be many more bad days on the way, but my god, hope is an amazing thing.