We're home. NYC was great and I'll write all about it tomorrow-ish. Right now, I have something else to say.
Three years ago today we returned from another vacation, to North Carolina's Outer Banks. Three years ago today, a dear friend of mine died. He was 25.
I have tried to think of something profound and meaningful to say about my friend, but all I ever come up with is stuff about gum and sunglasses and crazy drunk conversations and none of it captures how amazing he was or how much I miss him or how much it still hurts.
We were each other's evil twin. I lost a part of myself three years ago today.
Miss you, Peanut.
Like crazy, baby.
Right click and save please, to hear him sing.
Comments (14)
I am sorry for your loss. Today is the anniversary of my father-in-law's death as well.
Posted by Busy Mom | October 14, 2004 5:14 PM
I've just typed and deleted three paragraphs. So, before I delete this too, I'll just say that I'm truly sorry for your loss, and that I understand how hard it is to write about losing someone close to you.
I've been trying to write a memorial to my grandmother for two years, and I just can't do it. It never seems good enough. It never will be.
Posted by Debbie | October 14, 2004 5:19 PM
No need to be profound and meaningful... like Debbie said, it's hard to write about. You're keeping his memory alive though, and that alone speaks well of him.
Posted by bmh | October 14, 2004 6:19 PM
I'm too am sorry for your loss....I know the feeling all to well....glad you are back though
Posted by Casey | October 14, 2004 6:21 PM
There is no need for "profound words". Your emotions say it all.
I am very sorry for your loss and your pain today. Albeit, welcome home. You were missed.
Posted by Jade | October 14, 2004 7:10 PM
We did miss you! Welcome home and hugs for you today as you remember your friend.
Posted by Jenny | October 14, 2004 8:33 PM
*hugs* It's hard to lose someone close but you are keeping his memory alive, so you'll never really "lose" him.
Posted by Krush | October 14, 2004 10:30 PM
I understand...October is a hard month for me always. But I am glad that I had the people in my life for as long as I was given them, sometimes too short. They made me better.
Welcome back I missed you.
Posted by Gypsy | October 15, 2004 12:08 AM
Sorry. That's very sad. Listened to his song though - he sounds fun.
Posted by Belgian waffle | October 15, 2004 3:54 AM
I'm crying now. And I'm writing myself a note to call all of my friends tomorrow!
He sounds like he was fun (and funny)! The Pork Song!? Makes me laugh through my tears.
Posted by DeAnn | October 15, 2004 4:02 AM
Hey. glad to see you're back. Also, it means a lot to people who feel close to you in your blog to read about a part of you that isn't the usual jolly, chipper self. We're all human and you've proven to me once again that you're just a kick ass person....ok..that was all mushy and stuff....just thanks.
Posted by Amy | October 15, 2004 8:41 AM
I'm so sorry for you loss. Some pains, time can not heal..
(((good thoughts)))
Posted by Elizabeth | October 15, 2004 12:28 PM
Chin up! Sorry.
Posted by Pamalamadingdong | October 15, 2004 12:39 PM
Your post made me sad - I too had an evil twin (he was killed, aged 36, two years ago this July past).
Deep down I'm still pissed off with him for leaving me.
I long for all the laughter never to be laughed but I treasure all the laughs that were.
Posted by Fi | October 18, 2004 5:28 AM