So first of all, I'm sorry for my post yesterday. Well, I'm not sorry for the post, but I'm sorry for going along all happy and then dropping the bad news like a brick at the end. I didn't mean to write it that way, but that was the way it hit me yesterday so I guess that's how it came out. I considered going back and adding a disclaimer, but I just couldn't stand to look at it. Also, thank you all for your kind and caring comments. I usually try really hard to answer all my comments, but on that one I just don't have the heart. So a great big global thanks to all of you and please forgive me for not replying.
I was planning to write this big long post about death and pain and suffering and about how I support someone's right to decide that they are in too much pain and don't want to do it anymore but about how that support is much harder to apply to someone who is only 36 and who really was like a brother to me for a lot of my life and how maybe that is how it always feels to the people left behind even if the person is 96. But that just depressed the hell out of me. Then I was going to write this post about my two oldest childhood friends and about how I still talk to one but not the other and about how they are both going through some really terrible things right now and how awful it seems that I can't do anything to help either of them. Which is selfish, yes; because it would make me feel better, but also not selfish because these are people I care about and I just want to make it better for them so they will stop being hurt. Then I thought that you can't ever really do that. You can try, and sometimes you can help a bit, but there is nothing you can do to take away someone else's pain. So that just depressed the hell out of me too.
So here's what I have instead. (Which I realize doesn't quite work since I've already put all the miserable stuff at the top, but I'm very tired so I'm going with whatever I get.)
1. I have no idea when you are supposed to use a semi-colon. Whenever the handy dandy Microsoft program I'm using recommends a semi-colon, I say sure, throw one of those bad boys in there. I sure hope that Bill Gates knows when you are supposed to use a semi-colon, otherwise he is making me look bad.
2. Cassie-b sent us the greatest pair of baby booties that she made her own self with her very own hands. At least she claims she made them herself, but they are knitted and are all nice and even and perfect and based on my own knitting experiences I don't think that is actually possible to do. But, she claims that she made them so I will trust her on that. I am going to post a picture of them soon and you will all be jealous and start clamoring for your own and Cassie-b will have to start making baby booties full time. However, I feel I have to admit that I very nearly made myself unable to post a picture of the baby booties because I am pregnant and sleep deprived and stupid. You see, I opened the incredibly well-taped box (ah my friend, you are a woman after my own heart) and admired the lovely booties and then I promptly put the box with the booties still inside out with the recycling. I did remember though and went tearing outside in my bathrobe and my husband's shoes to rescue them before any harm could befall them. You all should have been there; because I'm sure I looked really funny and also because maybe one of you would have reminded me not to throw away the baby gifts. I'll learn, really I will.
3. See, there are two semi-colons in this post, but inserted on the say-so of Bill Gates. Anybody wanna tell me if they are correct?