October 14, 2004

Peanut

We're home. NYC was great and I'll write all about it tomorrow-ish. Right now, I have something else to say.

Three years ago today we returned from another vacation, to North Carolina's Outer Banks. Three years ago today, a dear friend of mine died. He was 25.

I have tried to think of something profound and meaningful to say about my friend, but all I ever come up with is stuff about gum and sunglasses and crazy drunk conversations and none of it captures how amazing he was or how much I miss him or how much it still hurts.

We were each other's evil twin. I lost a part of myself three years ago today.

Miss you, Peanut.
Like crazy, baby.

Right click and save please, to hear him sing.

Posted by Beth at October 14, 2004 04:29 PM
Comments

I am sorry for your loss. Today is the anniversary of my father-in-law's death as well.

Posted by: Busy Mom at October 14, 2004 05:14 PM

I've just typed and deleted three paragraphs. So, before I delete this too, I'll just say that I'm truly sorry for your loss, and that I understand how hard it is to write about losing someone close to you.

I've been trying to write a memorial to my grandmother for two years, and I just can't do it. It never seems good enough. It never will be.

Posted by: Debbie at October 14, 2004 05:19 PM

No need to be profound and meaningful... like Debbie said, it's hard to write about. You're keeping his memory alive though, and that alone speaks well of him.

Posted by: bmh at October 14, 2004 06:19 PM

I'm too am sorry for your loss....I know the feeling all to well....glad you are back though

Posted by: Casey at October 14, 2004 06:21 PM

There is no need for "profound words". Your emotions say it all.
I am very sorry for your loss and your pain today. Albeit, welcome home. You were missed.

Posted by: Jade at October 14, 2004 07:10 PM

We did miss you! Welcome home and hugs for you today as you remember your friend.

Posted by: Jenny at October 14, 2004 08:33 PM

*hugs* It's hard to lose someone close but you are keeping his memory alive, so you'll never really "lose" him.

Posted by: Krush at October 14, 2004 10:30 PM

I understand...October is a hard month for me always. But I am glad that I had the people in my life for as long as I was given them, sometimes too short. They made me better.

Welcome back I missed you.

Posted by: Gypsy at October 15, 2004 12:08 AM

Sorry. That's very sad. Listened to his song though - he sounds fun.

Posted by: Belgian waffle at October 15, 2004 03:54 AM

I'm crying now. And I'm writing myself a note to call all of my friends tomorrow!

He sounds like he was fun (and funny)! The Pork Song!? Makes me laugh through my tears.

Posted by: DeAnn at October 15, 2004 04:02 AM

Hey. glad to see you're back. Also, it means a lot to people who feel close to you in your blog to read about a part of you that isn't the usual jolly, chipper self. We're all human and you've proven to me once again that you're just a kick ass person....ok..that was all mushy and stuff....just thanks.

Posted by: Amy at October 15, 2004 08:41 AM

I'm so sorry for you loss. Some pains, time can not heal..

(((good thoughts)))

Posted by: Elizabeth at October 15, 2004 12:28 PM

Chin up! Sorry.

Posted by: Pamalamadingdong at October 15, 2004 12:39 PM

Your post made me sad - I too had an evil twin (he was killed, aged 36, two years ago this July past).

Deep down I'm still pissed off with him for leaving me.

I long for all the laughter never to be laughed but I treasure all the laughs that were.

Posted by: Fi at October 18, 2004 05:28 AM